挣扎

此刻的心挣扎得很可怕。
和朋友们吃了点心后，
我决定一个人驾车兜兜风。。。
还记得当初来到这里，
一不开心，
不管多夜，
我都会一个人驾车兜风，
深夜的马路很宁静，
在这星期天的早晨也一样的宁静。。
就算听着歌，泪流满脸了都好，
我还是喜欢以这方式解除自己的纳闷，
至少不需要把烦恼带给其他人。
我想我应该会很想念这街道上的味道，
有时候我讨厌当初为何选择来到这里，
不然今天就不会有这感觉。
三个月说短不短，
说长不长，
怎么我好想生离死别一样？
我不懂，我只是有种不安的感觉，
我只是害怕失去。
三个月后的我们，又会是怎么样的。。

第一次不想要有那么长的假期 ==

一个人的生活，
一个人的自由，
一个人的精彩，
我即将与你告别三个月。

这一天的来临

岁月不留人
我期待的那么一天终于到来了
不需要上课三个月
对很多人来说真是值得庆祝
但对于我来说
一点都不
我还是比较喜欢短短几个星期的假期
三个月太长了
如果找不到工作
看来我得在家量地板了==

不敢想象即将毕业的我
只是三个月我就能如此的不舍
更何况是毕业了以后
大家各分东西
想要说句话都难了
真的很讨厌分离
但这却也是生活中必经之路
所谓天下没有不散之筵席嘛

有人说
你很喜欢我们会再见这首歌厚
我相信认识我的人都会晓得
这首歌对我的意义多深
一听见这首歌
三年里的一切一一浮现
尤其是在这三年里和我一起听这首歌的人儿们
相信它对你们的意义也是如此的深

给我答应 我们会再见
让我们天涯海角始终不变
承诺藏在心里面
什么距离都不算远

我真的真的很希望大家可以再次的聚在一起
听听他们五个人再次唱这首歌
如果可以
我想给大家紧紧一个拥抱
把拥抱的余温铭记于心

我
突然


很

想念






你们

牢骚

我没有放弃
我只是不想自己继续伤害自己
你不曾想要保护我
你没资格说我笨
但我想说
你很笨

千千万万个不明白
怎么你那么死心塌地
在你眼里
只有她
我又算什么

总是想好好的对你
可是我没这个机会

别理我
我自己在发牢骚

明天就没事了

说再见

我并非很迫不及待的想要离开这里三个月，
只是我想考试后我再也没有时间好好的打篇部落。
假期开心，回家也固然开心，
可是这却是悲喜交集的心情。
好像习惯了这里的一切，
突然之间需要回家三个月，
我肯定会想念这里的一切一切，
尤其是这里的[自由]。
我并不是叛逆，
只是有些时候，
妈咪会不会担心了太多。。。
住在同一屋檐下快三年了，
怎么说也是种习惯，
就算平时的我们或许很少开口聊天，
可是这是一种习惯，
要一时之间改是蛮难的。
出门前检查天台的玻璃门是否关了没啊，最重要的。

我等下还有考试，
可是我还是坚持的把这篇部落完成，嘻嘻。
好像太多话想说了，
继续收着会不安咧！

我会尽量在我回家之前上来这报道，哈哈！
要准备去了，祝我好运。

事隔三年，我们会再见。

不懂为何当初那份很强烈的感觉又回来了，
三年了，真的三年了，
像似一场梦，
希望这场梦别停止，
要一直继续下去，
我好怕它有天会停下。。。

我有好多话想说，
却忍不住流下泪水，
已经不能继续说了，
我怎么那么丢人现眼啊！
当我从第一句话说起时，
这三年的一切一一浮现在脑海中，
心里清楚知道永远不会再有五个人一起站在台上，
永远不会有相同的五个人现场呈送‘我们会再见’给我们，
永远都不会再有我们的一张大合照。

很多人说，
一听到陈小小，就会想起我；
一听到傅健颖，就会想起惠；
一听到王翎蓓，就会想起凌。
不知什么时候开始，
这似乎已mind set。
突然很怀念，怀念那一切。
要是半夜有重播你们的节目，
我们会set alarm，
然后互相叫醒对方，
就算只是30 mins的节目。
不晓得怎么那么疯狂，
不曾参与这些活动的我，
却在2007年跨了出去。。。

是缘分让我们相遇，
然后逐渐成为朋友。。。
让我认识了很多人，
从不同地方的，
从槟城的都好，
真的很怀念当时的日子。

Jyin,很多活动或许我都没法出席，
抱歉。
可是我以后会尽量 :)
不晓得是不是老了，
有时候真的觉得很累，
怎么也提不起劲。
可是今天的聚会，
好像让我找回从前，
真的感触良多。
我不会是最支持你的那一位，
因为。。。那一位永远是惠 :p
哈哈！不管是谁都好，
她在我心目中是最棒的支持者:)
希望以后的我们依然坚信着我们会再见，
再把它实现，
哪怕是我们都长满了白发。。。
就算你以后不再在乐坛发展了，
那份精神还会一直在，
就像我对小一样，哈哈哈！

像你说的，
当想放弃的时候就会想到我们，
希望你会一直坚强走下去。

Hui,我最爱就是你啦 ！！！
等我回槟城见，
你也是很棒的会长哦！

JiaLing,你不要酱粗鲁可以吗？
哈哈哈！我也是爱你啦，只是输惠一点 :p

Tracy,你真是个大忙人！
不要责怪自己啦，
只要我们在一起，
就是最棒的了。

所有今天出席的朋友们，
很高兴认识你们，
保持联系。

烦恼？

总是喜欢压抑自己的情绪，
总觉得网上没那么安全，
不能时时刻刻把它表达，
因为可能你的一句话，
会得到许多人的反对；
当然也会有赞成。
在还可以默默承受的时候，
就尽量避免把它透露在网上吧，
纯属本人意见。
在我这个年纪，
根本不想需要烦太多，
对于很多人来说，
甚为学生的我，
除了学业，应该没有该烦的范围了。
只能说，
家家有本难念的经。
小孩子才是最快乐，
根本不晓得什么是烦恼。
如果有天你告诉我你很烦，
我好想打从心底地问你，
什么是烦恼？有这一回事吗？
可惜，我已经不再像孩子般那么单纯了。
是现实的一切逼我成长，
我多想赖着小孩子的年纪，
拉着妈咪衣服吵要买糖果，
得不到的东西可以野蛮得在地上哭着跺脚，
然后哥哥姐姐们拿着糖果来安慰我，
脸上就会再重现笑容了，
就这么简单，
就这么快乐。
可惜，这些都不可能了。
现在的我，想要得到什么都要自己去争取，
怎么可能像个小孩拉着妈咪衣服了？
什么事情，自己跌倒了，就要自己爬起来，
忍痛继续向前走。。。
每天嘻嘻哈哈的，
原来我也有烦恼，
只是白天的时候我把它给隐藏了，
知道深夜，
它一一地侵犯我，
然后让我痛不欲生。。。
我知道的，
只要我忍得这一夜，
一切都会过去的。。
每当失落时对自己说这么样的一句话，
不管是不是安慰自己，
还是真的都好。
我相信我的明天会更好。

I'll be back and love you again if I become prettier someday..

快半年了，我是说你占据我心快半年了。
不想去数，可是却也很自然的数了起来，
这不是借口，这是矛盾。
什么时候开始，
我为了你的一个神情甚至是一个举动而开心，快乐，
不管做什么事情，都会想到你。
当看到情侣们在街上手牵手的走着，
那幸福洋溢的神情，
好像提醒了我自己不曾有这种感觉，
脑海中浮现的也是你的影子，
你的每一个微笑，
波动了我的心弦。
每当自己越想越深入的时候，
哦！那只是幻想，
我很清楚的知道，
我会对自己傻笑，
然后回神了，
却发现你是多么遥不可及。
现时生活中，
我们真的如此遥远。

终于雨过天晴了，
虽然有些时候还是会突然很想你，
还是会为了你的ignorance而难过，
可是谢谢你所做的一切，
让我不再那么的傻。
曾经以为不管你怎么对我都没关系，
不管你心里还有没有她都没关系，
只想你给我们个机会，
只想用我的真心去打动你，
可是现在，
这一切对我来说已不重要了。
我已经不会再那么傻，
为了你愿意不顾一切。

今天看了篇文章，
述说那男孩很帅，
许多人都仰慕他，
女的有点肥胖，
称不上漂亮。
他们在网上认识，
就这样慢慢的喜欢上了对方，
直到第一次通过video call见面。
女的很自卑，
可是男的却说他不介意。
他们的关系越来越好，
女的怀了他的孩子。
女的晓得男孩对他越来越冷淡了，
因为男孩的朋友们都说女孩配不上他。。。
直到有天，
男孩回家后发现自己的孩子不停的哭泣，
发现不妙了。。
打开房门发现女孩穿着婚纱躺在床上动也不动了，
读了女孩写下的遗书，
男孩后悔了。。
可是一切已经太迟了。

======================================
这社会是现实的，
很多男孩都喜欢样貌漂亮的女生，
可是有时候，
样貌漂亮的女生不一定适合你，不一定真的爱你。
相反的，长得不怎么样的女生或许来得更适合你。
朋友们，如果身边有位长得不怎么样的女友，
请别嫌弃她，
你不晓得，
她其实以自己的真心爱着你，
为了你，她愿意不顾一切。

我想说，
等我变漂亮了，
我会再回来爱你，
如果我可以接受你今天的对待。

Final :(

每当心里似乎有好多话想说的时候，
一开始写下第一个字，
好像又忘了自己到底想说些什么。
考试将近，
好像整个人一点头绪也没有，
失去了方向，
不晓得该如何是好。
啊！为什么要考试？
这一个星期是假期，
让我们温习的好时光，
可是为什么其中两天我们却还得到学院去？
教授们，我们也是人一个，好不好？
好像快疯了，因为我没做些什么准备，嘻嘻。
除了加油，还是加油。
如果加油真的可以改变一切，
那我愿意说上几百倍的加油。
可惜这是一种太不实际的方法，
所以还是少说 ;p

神阿！我真的需要幸运星。
求你给我多一些些。。。

X'mas dinner ^^

Christmas is approaching :)
Christmas is really a special day for me,
although I am not Christian ^^

For me, I always wish to celebrate with my loved one,
even it's just a simple dinner,
who cares :p

So Can I have a X'mas dinner with you?
Can I ?
Can I ?

I know I'll never got chance to ask about this.
Just ignore me, I am just here to express about this.

割舍

这几天仿佛有好多话想说，
但每当打开部落想更新时都只是写了两行字，
就把这部落给关了。
不晓得是惰性战胜了一切，
还是心里的话多得不懂得该怎么写？

刚刚告诉妹妹，
我好怀念暗恋一个人的感觉，
那种你根本不晓得对方到底在想什么，
也没有人懂你心里的那一位到底是谁，
每个人都在猜测，
其实连我们本身也在猜测那个他到底在想些什么。
这种感觉总是苦涩中带点甜，
令人无助的感觉。
你无法像情人一样和他相处，
但你却也不愿意只像朋友般和他相处，
你无法往前走，
也无法退后，
就像在十字路口中央，
不懂该向左还是向右，
因为你很清楚的知道，
如果把那份爱说出来，
很有可能你们已无法再像以往一样，
或许你们会从好朋友演变到陌生人。。。

当我们爱上一个人的时候，
我们无法要求别人也爱上我们。
有些人选择守候，
有些人却选择离开。
不是每一个人都值得你去守候，
如果他已有了另一半，
那你改清楚知道，
他不是那一位值得你守候的人。
人常说，
爱一个人，只要看见他快乐，就满足了。
说得多么简单又贴切的一句话，
试问有多少人可以做得到呢？

如果说我爱上了一个没有另一半但心有所属的人，
我想是错的，或许我徘徊在爱与喜欢之间。
但，很清楚的知道他不值得我守候，
因为他心里一直都住着一个人，
所以在一星期多前，我选择离开了。
才发现，爱与不爱原来都需要那么大的勇气。
当你觉得割舍爱的时候，
就像自己拿着一把刀把自己的皮一层层剥开，
心是痛的，
但却还要潇洒的说，没事。

我知道我可以好好的过，
就算心里已少了那份感觉。

曾经的他陪我走过许多喜怒哀乐，
多么还念当时我们一起所做过的一切。
两个人走街，一起选衣服，大伙儿一起喝茶，派对还有好多好多。
心痛的是，这一切已成了过去，
已无法在我人生中重演了。
忘了什么时候，我们每天都会联络，
当关系走得很近的时候，
却也在一秒钟后疏远了。
我们说过没事的，
我们还会像以往一样，
但这都只是安慰我们的话。

我们，已经变了。
已经变得不一样了。
我们已经不再是好朋友了，
我们已经不能像以往一样每天联络，
惊讶的是，
我已经不再为了你的一举一动或一句话而伤心难过了。
我想，我已接近成功了。
成功放下了你，尽管当初我觉得我做不到。

原来，再刻苦铭心的爱都会有被遗忘的一天。
不管你今天爱得多么深厚，
那份爱也会有褪色的一天。
有些事，
过去了就无法重来，
有些人，
过去了就再也不会回来了。

颓废的生活

不懂在过着些怎么样的日子，
颓废到极点。
开始发现好多人都会在周末时说‘很闷啊！’，
我也是其中一个 ==
其实有很多事情在等着我去做，
可是我就是懒惰，
抱着临时抱佛脚的态度，
所以到最后我得到的成果其实并没有很好，
这就是所谓的[报应]。
考试将近，这样的生活好像不该是这个时候出现的，
这时候的我应该积极些，
可是总是觉得缺少了什么的，
已经没有往日的那股推动力了，
只觉得很累很闷，
虽然我可以一整天什么都不做，
只是对着电脑，电视或我最爱的床。

突然好想回家，
虽然在家也没做些什么，
至少我不会是一个人，
不会那么颓废。

在这里，
我可以一整天一个人面对那不会给我任何反应的墙，
然后没有踏出家门口一步，
没有开口和任何人说一句话，
全世界仿佛只剩我一个。
我那么年轻，
这种周末的生活根本不适合我。

有时候我会想，
我得要求那么简单，
却简单得太难时间。
有时候真的只想找个可以陪我吃饭的人，
在我一个人的时候可以陪陪我。
当然，我晓得为何这要求会变成如此的难，
因为我要求的是一个可以波动我心弦的人，
而不是随便一个人都可以的。
可惜，往往那波动我心弦的人都离我好远。

夜还那么早，
我还需要一个人继续颓废下去。。。

♥ Beautiful Days ♥

This Sat and Sun are such beautiful days for me ♥
I slept about 12.30a.m. on Fri and woke up about 11a.m. yesterday.
The first thing I did was ON my laptop :p
I sat on the sofa and daydream for a while before brush my teeth ! hahaha !
After that, I checked my Facebook and Twitter as what I always do :p
Since long times never gather with my devil spirit family,
so I decided to attend this gathering.
I just followed them without knowing where to go actually. LOL.
Well, I never expect that there's such place near Ampang park,
I love the environment damn much.
It's a cafe with home style,
western food is the main course there :)
I wanted to go there with my love one, hahahaha !
As if I could be with the one I ♥ someday in future.




There are few more photos in my HP,
too bad I failed to upload after I updated the Facebook version ==
Will be upload after this.

Shisha provided at there too, but I am not sure with the price hehe =X
Friends, let's go together !
I LOVE IT ! hehe.







Wooow ! I can't wait to go there again ! hehe.

After few hours of gathering,
we went home.
I took a nap for sure !
I was very tired after back from the gathering,
maybe the weather was damn hot and made me sleepy :D
At night, I went to Yulik for steamboat with Ben, Vinz, Wong and KF :)
It was a great dinner because of the weather ! Raining day weiii :p
I actually wanted to Sing K, but very the expensive so we just went home after dinner.

I don't know why I don't feel sleepy at all and I slept about 2.30a.m. last night ==
And this morning I woke up around 9.30a.m. because ....
We've promised Papa Mama to go to Imbi market LOL.
It was crowded coz today is SUNDAY !!
Wu ~ Wu ! Beautiful Sunday :p
After back from market, I took a shower and started my lazy life by sitting on the sofa and ...............
Hehe, you should know what I am doing now LOL.

Alright, I guess we will be just staying at home for the whole day today :)
Have a nice Sunday everyone !

Happy Deepavali :D

First of all, Happy Diwali to all of you.
It's public holiday again.
Nothing special,
just going to my friend's open house tomorrow.
I don't know why I can be so relax all the times,
actually there are two assignments waiting for me ==
E-business Law and Problem Solving 2.
Seriously I got no mood at all,
holiday mode ON ! Hoho.
I know that I'll be very busy for the following weekksssssss.
Assignments and FINALSSSSSSSSSSSSS ! OMG !
Bless me please :p

Have a nice holiday !
Make it memorable please.

纯粹

刚刚心血来潮看看表妹的部落格，
我这表姐好不称职，
没错的话她今年才15岁吧？嘻嘻。
只能说，如今的孩子们真的是早熟。
她的部落格，几乎篇篇都是关于爱情。
顿时觉得那以前可爱又蹦蹦跳跳的表妹真的长大了。
人生中，如果不曾跌倒，哪会成长？
不管在哪一方面，每一次的失败是我们学习的最好机会。
读书固然重要，可是很多事情是我们无法从书本学到的。

试问有谁不曾在感情上跌得遍体鳞伤？
再坚强的人都有脆弱的一面。
如果一位朋友在我面前哭了，
我会很放心，因为我知道她没有逞强。
相反的，如果一位朋友在我面前伪装快乐，
我会很担心，因为伪装的背后是如此难受，
她会比原被伤心多倍。。。
所以，请你别伪装，
想哭就在我面前痛哭一场，
我不会为你抹泪，
因为长大了，自己的泪自己抹 :)

女生有颗脆弱的心，
很容易就因为你一句无心的话或举动就破碎了。
当他喜欢上你的时候，
你的一句话或一个举动便会影响她的情绪，
很傻吧？
可是你永远不晓得她是多么心甘情愿的为了你而当一位傻瓜。
相等的，当你一次又一次的把她伤得伤痕累累的时候，
她对你会越来越心淡了，
不是她不爱了，
只是她晓得，不管她怎么做你都不会珍惜，
是时候保护自己了。
当她决定要离你而去的时候，
她真的彻底失望了。

当一个女生向你告白的时候，
证明她真的很爱你，
为了你，她放下了尊严，放下了一切。
她身边不时没有喜欢他的人，
而是她最想要和你在一起，
想要陪你渡过一切的喜怒哀乐。。
如果有这么一个他，
请好好珍惜。

Tomorrow will be better :)

Another nice day again.
Still, I don't know why :p
I am listening to '明天会更好‘,Tomorrow will be better.
Yea,always believe that tomorrow will be better.
Doesn't means that today is not good enough,
just there's a better tomorrow always.
Yesterday is a history,
today is too late to be,
so let's create a better tomorrow.
Learn from today's mistakes,
and never repeat it again.

See ! I feel great with what we are now.
I don't expect more anymore :)
It's good for the both of us,isn't?

My friends said that '爱不疚 ’by lumfung represented my song LOL.
[FONG SHAO, FONG HUAI SHO YAO]
Excuse me ! I already let go what :p
As you guys can see how release I am.

And....
One of my friend asked me,
If you can't be with the one you loved,
will you be the one who loves you much?
Errr.. Err..
The answer: Maybe ? Depends on who is he.
Maybe I'll if I got the feeling :)

hahaha ! Well, my answer is meaningless.
Don't care la, I am happy with my life now.

I am going to library with my friends tomorrow.
Wow, it's gonna be a long long day again...
All of us are tired with those assignmentsssssss.

Hope we can get what we want tomorrow.
Kampateh my friends.

Let's look forward for a better tomorrow.
Oh ya, it's really good when I know that my friend is moving forward too.
Well, I'll never wait for those who's unable to move forward.
I'll just greet you with GOOD LUCK !

♥ I don't mind, just because of you ♥

One of my friend told me that,
once a girl decided to give up,
she's really get hurt and doesn't means that she doesn't love anymore,
yipiieee I totally agreed :p
Once she decided, she's really leaving.
So do I.
I don't know why I can be so obsessed with you,
until I don't mind anything.
I don't mind the way you're,
I don't mind the way you talk to me,
I don't mind the way you treat me,
I don't mind how bad is your temper,
I don't mind even you can't let go of her..
I don't mind because I believe that I can make you touch someday in future.
A thousands or millions of I DON'T MIND.

My friends have woke me up recently.
Is it worth for you to be like this while other never cares,
NOBODY CARES !
Is it you're really happy to be like this?

I keep silence as I know I am not fine at all.
I am not willing to be like this,
just because of the what so called feeling,
I got no choice.

I've tried to act nothing,
I even laugh loudly always infront of my friends,
joking around as the way I get used to be.......
There's tears inside my heart,
just like the raindrop from the sky.

I am down coz of any single action or word from you,
but still, I've to SMILE.
I guess we never share anything for quite a long period.
Are we still best friends as what you've said? WOndering..
There's a wall between us since that day,
nobody can breaks it.

It's time to stop to act as a stupid :)
Life still goes on.
And thanks for leaving a scar on my heart.
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Today is a GOOD GOOD day although I am not feeling well.
Maybe I've got enough sleep last night :)
Today and tomorrow just got only one class,
quite relax but I am not so happy actually coz there will be replacement class soon ==
I am really stress coz of those assignments :(
I guess the weather is damn bad,
suddenly cold and suddenly hot,
makes me not feeling well,
and my face got NEW MEMBER again,
PIMPLE, damn it.

Today is really a good day for me,
don't ask me why,
the answer will be I DON'T KNOW.
Seriously, I DON'T KNOW.
I hope this feeling will goes on,
don't go away from me please,
I do really love you :)

Oh yea,
one of my friend called me and ask for part timer this weekend,
anyone interested?
Kindly contact me ASAP.

The way we are.

I back from Malacca last night.
It was a GREAT trip with my girls,
and you know what,
I am sick, vomited like there's no tomorrow.
The 'BEST; trip ever.
But still thanks to my jumuisss for giving me such a nice trip,
and indeed sorry for spoilt your mood.
I feel warm when you guys taking care of me, thanks.
I don't know why,
by the time I sick,
I miss you so much...
But you'll never be there for me,
how I wish you're the one who will take care of me whenever I am sick..

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I am afraid, afraid of everything.
I am tired, tired of everything.

This week is gonna be a busy week for assignment.
Assignments and finals are coming up soon,
drives me crazy.
I hope I won't do last mins job again,
I do really hope.

Cyndi Toh, work hard !!!!
Wish me luck and please support me always.
I can't be lazy anymore,
and
NO MORE LAST MINS PLEASE !

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I tried to be sporting all the times,
I tried hard, you know that.
Everything has changed and seems becoming bad,
I miss the way we get used to be last time,
but it will never come back to me anymore.
Seriously, I hate the way we communicates now,
it makes me hurt.
It's hurt, and I feel helpless.
Nobody is perfect, so do I...


My english is poor,
but who cares ?!
At least I am trying to improve :)

傻瓜，别再追了。

昨夜朋友给我看了篇文章，
我觉得很有意义的一片文章，
它在我不断徘徊的期间给了我答案。

[某个人曾和你肩并肩。手牵手的向前走。
沿途的风景仿佛一辈子都看不够。看不完。
走着走着。倦了。累了。
握紧的双手越来越松。松到轻易地就放开了。
像是河流的两岸。即使都向前走。
中间也有着河流的阻挡。
从此。
彼岸的花开花落。是此岸的无能为力。
终于明白。不能失去。还是想和他一起走。
于是开始跑起来。渴望河流的某处。可以变窄。窄到再握住那个人的手。
傻瓜。你没发现只有你一个人去追。去找。那个人早就没有跟上来。
你骗自己。他只是在休息。很快一切都会回来。
你跌跌撞撞。浑身是伤。谁的话都听不进去。
只是因为爱。所以要向前走。
把联系方式删了。因为。害怕自己会和他联系。
不发出声音。不展露表情。就不会那么容易绝望了...]

文章里让我清醒的一句话，
[傻瓜。你没发现只有你一个人去追。去找。那个人早就没有跟上来。
你骗自己。他只是在休息。很快一切都会回来。]
我知道自己已经很累了，
我知道不管我多么卖力的跑，
他永远都不会跟上来。
他只不过在为了别人而跑，
那为何我还笨笨的为他而跑呢？
他永远都不晓得我为他跑得有多累。

在这之前，
我总是告诉自己，
感觉已经退了，
没那么深刻了。
可是在某些时候，
我不得不承认，
那股刻苦铭心的感觉。

现在，我很清楚的告诉自己，
再痛，放手是最好的方法。
或许，是时候给珍惜我的人一个机会吧。
不管是真的累了，
还是绝望了，
这是最好的解脱。

忘不掉过去的人根本无法与生活向前冲。
你选择回望过去，
我却选择走了。
有天，我要带着幸福的微笑祝福你，
告诉你，我过得很好。

I miss YOU,YOU,YOU and YOU ...

Guess what I am doing now?
I keep listening to '说了再见' by Jay Chou, and
'We will meet again' by ATQ 2007.
Sometimes I do really hate life,
because we are facing thousands or millions times of separations.

I thought I won't cry anymore when coming back from Butterworth,
but I cried just now.
Once I entered the house,
there's nobody home.
I was so tired and I wanted to sleep,
but I keep awake,
and my heart ain't feeling well,
but I don't even know why.
At 6p.m., I was looking at the clock and I was thinking that,
how good if I am still in Butterworth,
my sister and my two little nieces will be home at this time.
I admitted that my temper is kinda bad,
and I get used to scold them if they're too noisy,
but I do really love them lots.
I was so hungry just now and I found nobody to take dinner with me,
I was so helpless...
I was sitting alone in the living room facing the laptop and..
my tears never listen to me..
I cry alone like stupid and I wanted to call my mum but I control myself..
Coz my mum will be worry me lots if I cry..
And I am big enough..

Tomorrow, one of my dear friend will be leaving and start his new life in Singapore..
We get used to be so close last time, we have lots of fun when we're together..
He'll be back after 6 months...
Singapore not that far right ? Maybe you'll think so..
But there's wordless to describe my feeling,
it's complicated..
I know he's more suffer than me, he came all the way from Sarawak and has been stayed
in KL for almost 4 years..
He adapted everything here and now, he has to start another new life in a new place without friends and family..
This remind me about 2+ years ago,I started my life in KL..
I will never forget the feeling..
HELPLESS.
I cry and cry for every night..
Nobody talk to me,
nobody listen to me,
nobody eat with me...

I know he's sad and he told me that he's so reluctant to leave...
I really don't know what can I say...
I told him, think from another way,
it's a new start for you..
and your Mandarin and English will improves.
6 months very fast to pass...

We were listening to 'After Say Goodbye' in the car just now,
but I know we'll meet again...
By the time I say goodbye just now,
I don't dare to look at you and I just smile...
After closed the door,
I don't even dare to turn back and say goodbye again..

I really hope you can take good care of yourself there..
and don't repeat any mistake that you did anymore..
All the best and good luck my dear..

We're always here waiting for you :)

I am gonna miss YOU,YOU,YOU and YOU.

Dreaming...

I am going back to my hometown tomorrow but I feel nothing,
I mean I am not as excited as I expected.
Suddenly feel like reluctant to leave here,
although it's just for few days,
but I got a feeling that is unable to describe by words.
Sometimes I feel like I need a break,
leave everything behind included YOU,
but I got no direction.
I don't know where to go,
I don't know what can I do.

Do you realize that I don't even dare to look into your eyes anymore since that day ?
I am sad whenever I look into your eyes,
it reminds me of what I did and what you said.
I know all of that are just excuses,
you're not willing to hurt me too.
Thanks for your kindness.
Ops, perhaps mercy.

Sometimes I really hope that you're just beside me,
and I can hold your hand ..
I know it's impossible,
and the deadline is approaching,
it's time for me to let go officially...

How I wish that I can tell you once again,
and I hope that you can tell me what I wish to hear from you.

IMPOSSIBLE, I know it.
I am just dreaming.
I keep dreaming.
I should slap myself maybe.

I am just not fine at this moment,
I am sure that I will be fine after tonight.

没有如果。

身边比较亲近的朋友都问我，
你放手了，如果有天他告诉你，
他想要和你在一起呢？
我笑笑得回答，
再看我是否还对他又感觉吧！
一个笑几乎可以盖过一切。
我自己知道这个机会多么渺茫，
所以从不会对他有什么期待，
我想这是不让自己失望的最好方法吧。
我想，我已习惯了这样的日子。

有个人说，两个人在一起其实没有那么简单。
想了想，这句话其实多么真实。
或许还年轻，总是觉得何必顾虑那么多，
只要感觉对了，在一起就好了。
才发现，要是那么简单，
就代表我们彼此都抛开了一切，
活在只有彼此的世界里，
与社会的现实都脱离了关系。。。
这，有多少个人可以做到呢？

上个星期，
我一直鼓励一位朋友对他喜欢的人告白，
等了一星期多，
终于答应了。
我真的开心，虽然不是我的事，
可是我并了解那份愉快，多么好的感觉。
原来要遇见彼此都喜欢彼此的人是件多么难的事。。

听着《你知道我在等你〉& 《我以为你还在》，
写这一片文章，
真是适合不过。。
同时，它让我那么的不快乐。。。

Ignorance.

Thanks for your ignorance.
I am totally fed up.

我很好，那你呢？

‘我很好’是如此简单的一句话，
但有时候它却让我们需要鼓起很大的勇气才说得出口，
在说的同时，就仿佛心中在滴血。
如果你问我，最近好了些吗？
我会告诉你，我很好，你呢？
不管是不是伪装，
我也想听见你说，我也很好。
可是我知道你永远都不会问我，
所以我没有机会对你撒一个这样的谎。

平时觉得很简单的话在此时变得如此复杂。
想要和你说声‘嗨’却也如此的难，
这句话在此刻怎么变得那么重了。

曾几何时，我们已经很少出现在彼此的profile了，
害怕的是什么？
或许就是以往觉得那些简单的话，
现在都变成沉重了，
就像说了出口就要负责一样，
所以我们宁愿不说。

我尝试不让自己去看你的profile，
我害怕自己会忍受不住那份悲哀，
是的，是悲哀。
我觉得悲哀因为我们之间已经有堵墙了，
或许永远都无法敲破它。

以往的日子，
我会问自己，
怎么了？是我不够好吗？
现在，我只会告诉自己，
我并不差，只是对于你，
我还不够好。
我该觉得欣慰因为我会这么对自己说，
代表我已经不再那么在乎你了。
我是不是在安慰自己都不重要了，
我只想要快乐，
我想要一个可以了解我的人。

答应自己，
从今以后，我要快乐，
不再那么在意你的一切。

一切或许该结束了，
祝福你。

Motivation

Motivation is needed badly now.
Midterm is coming soon,
I seem like still RELAXING :(
Where's my motivation?
I don't even know what's able to motivates me the most now.
No idea at all.
I guess I am not interested in anything now except SLEEP.
I gained weight, I've to believe it because someone told me this,
I am not the only one who think so =X
Too bad, I just wish to lost some weight right now.
Arghh, I am tired.
I am tired with everything.

Don't rain please,
it's just like my heart keep bleeding.

I am a tough girl.
Yes I am.
Who cares if it's just pretense.
As what I've said, even I am pretending, I also want to be the happy one.

爱与不爱，都需要勇气。

原来爱一个需要那么大的勇气，
不爱一个人需要更大的勇气。
拿得起就要放得下，
好一句话。
不要的东西，我们可以轻易的丢了，
毫不犹豫地。
但一旦我们想放弃某个人，
我们会顾虑很多，
好像一时之间失去了方向似的，
依依不舍的，
这时候的我总会想起，
为什么在我丢掉不要的东西时是如此简单？
如果放弃一个人和丢垃圾一样简单，那有多好啊？
我们就不需要忍住舍弃的痛，
就算丢了也不会有想要捡回的念头。

最痛的是在我告诉你我不爱了的时候，
其实我依然爱着。
不想要说再见，
却因某些事而必须说出口，
然后告诉你，我很好，我没事了，
你懂不懂这么一句话需要我多大勇气？
我没有很大方，
我只是不想看见曾经多好的我们一瞬间变成如此陌生，
那是叫人多么心疼的。

Hard time.

I've read my previous blogs,
it sounds sweet =)
I feel sweet alone,
how funny is it LOL.
It's been 3 months I kept it,
I mean the feeling,
it's deep.
Too deep and I don't even can pull myself out from it although it's real hurt.
I was really fine when I was in my hometown,
but once I back to KL,
I am not fine at all,
thanks to my mum who has accompanied me for the whole week.
I hate being alone,
I felt lost after my mum back to BW.
I started to think lots,
I cried alone in the silent night,
nobody knows, and nobody cares too.

I guess I've lost a very good friend.
Sometimes it's really easy to say, but hard to do.
You're not as good as you said,
your actions showed me this.
Alright, I've tried to be friendly,
I am sorry if I ain't. =)

I was lost yesterday.
When tears flow, I realized the pain.
I told myself this is for the last time,
and I hope so.

I am really sad when I refresh back how close we get used to be last time,
and I am clearly knew that all of these will not happens again.
I tried to hold it,
but I found that it's useless.
So, just let it, this is the only thing I can do now.
I guess you don't even care =)

No matter how, you're always my best friend.
Whenever you think that you need me,
I'll always by your side.^^

It's hard time for me now,
but I believe that hard time will pass.
God bless me please.

Changes.

Everything changed,
we can't go back to the past anymore.
Every great time we had is the only memory,
I can't make sure that it will happens again in future,
just because of CHANGE,
I am sure you also feel the same,
don't you ? =)

I was really moody in past few days.
My cousin suddenly remind me of one sentences,
'Life is too short to be sad'.
She asked me, don't you remember you told me this ?
I don't know what to say,
Ohh ya, I told her before,
now only i realized. =)

How long I never got this feeling?
It's so strong and just like I can feel the tomorrow, or even future.
At the same time, it makes me down like hell.
Don't ask me why,
this is just simply a special feeling,
I feel GOOD when I am with you, that's all.
Once we said what we wanted to tell for so long,
the result is either good or bad.
For me, it's bad.
Yea, I got bad news.
I was really moody coz of this,
no matter how hard I cry,
the sadness is still there.
You don't know about it at all,
and you'll never care.
Who cares ?! Hahaha.

Things will changes right..
If someday in future, you think of me,
just tell me..
I hope I am still by your side at the same time..
Your smile lift me up,
you got very nice smile.
I don't dare to promise it will still mean lots to me after this,
but at least it's for now.

Life is so miserable,
sometimes by the time we have a crash on someone,
that person doesn't got the same feeling.
After some days, when that person started to think of us,
we might already left..
I faced it before.
This is life.

I do really hope there's a chance for us,
no matter how the result will be,
at least we have once in life and I will do my best..
Who cares if it's the only one chance..

Well, I am not emo-ing.
I am just expressing words in my mind...

Drink + I am fall for you.

I had a great night my my beloved friends before Raya break =)
Can you imagine that we drink for almost 7 hours?
I thought I can sleep well after drink,
but I stayed up for the whole night. ==''
And...
I was looking at those who was sleeping for few hours !
( Siapa makan cili terasa pedas )
Hahahahaha I damn mean right ? LOL.
I went home at 7++am early in the morning,
the air is fresh enough,
I love it !
I thought to have breakfast with you guys before back,
but SOMEONE is still sleeping,
so I just ciao !
Thanks guys for giving me such a great night,
but I guess we all were broke =X
Save money guys ! For our next plan ^^
I am gonna miss you guys for 1 week :(
Will you miss me at the same time?
Hmmmm =)
BTW, Selamat Hari Raya to all of my friends.
Have a nice holidays ya !
See you guys soon !

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I am fall for you ♥
It's just so simple,
without any reason.

Happy people are happy rich or poor,
unhappy people are unhappy rich or poor.
Your true wealth comes from your heart & is always only there.
So I am always rich with you in my heart ♥

No need to changes the way you get used to be,
I like the way you're. ♥

Merdeka?

Today is Merdeka, but I don't even can feel it.

Everything seem normal and it's bored than normal day =X

Arghhh I need to stay home alone for doing nothing.

Shopping mall will be crowded I guess,

so I just stay home ><

Should I feel proud to be Malaysian? =='''

Recently ,there is too many racists,

Malaysia no more peace between races :(

Still, I feel proud with my classmates,

we're always peace.

Guess what ?!

We celebrates Chinese New Year, Deepavali, Raya and even buka puasa together =)

I do really feel proud !

My class is awesome, give you guys a big clap =)

There is just another year for us to go,

we might be far apart or even busy with own stuff,

some of us may be lost contact in future,

always remember those memories we gained in these few years,

it can't be replace by other.

For sure, I hope we all will still keep contact.

Once be friends, friends for life, right?

Well, I had a greats day yesterday :)

After back from class,

I took a short break and I get ready heading to Jogoya @ Start Hill.

Met up with my 2 Bros LOL.

We had a very naisssss dinner, thanks Raymond Tan for the dinner xD

After that, I back home and I've been waited CK for 1 hour @@

Foo, KFC, Ben, Vinz and another friend were waiting for us for so long,

they reached there around 10pm LOL.

CK and I reached bout 1130PM.

I thought I'll scold by them badly,

but luckily they dint do so hahahaha.

I am really sorry that I was late .

We played pokers there, haha poker kingssssss !

Around 130am, we all going home.

Some of them go for second round =)

It was a greats night even it was simple.

I got new friend again haha.

Even I don't know cantonese and they don't know mandarin,

but we can still communicates well =)

That's mean, language is not a problem.

We proved it.

I got my last sem result,

it's BAD.

I did really do my best,

but the result is just like shit :(

Hmmm...

Nothing to do with it,

it's too late for everything,

I've to accept and do it better next time...

Don't give me a hope that will never exist.

最酸的并不是吃醋的感觉，

最酸的是你根本没着权利。

很多事情，我们不懂会比懂得来得好，

当我懂了以后，

心中有一股醋意，

很清楚知道自己没权利，

可是还是控制不了，

我。。。

吃醋了。

心情不好了大半天，

只是维持短短的时间，

只要开个玩笑，

原来我就会没事了，

我何时变得那么知足了？

连我自己都不晓得。

狠狠拒接一个人总好比给人一个假期望，

请你别给我一个不存在的期望，谢谢。

是你的就是你的，

不是你的就不是你的。

有些事不要太在意，

那一点点小事，

我为何有酸意？

我想，我需要学习不去在意，

因为我没资格。

总是幻想可以和你在一起是多么的好，

哪怕需要等多久，

我还是会等。。。

只希望现在的生活一直这样下去，

因为我依然快乐，

处于这状况。。。

L.O.V.E

It's hard for us to meet someone that we're loving is loving us too.

LOVE seems simple, but it's complicated.

We'll never know how it will be going,

till the end of it.

It's just like gambling,

you'll just either win or lose.

We might need to use our lifetime to learn about it.

Thanks for loving me all the ways.

For someone that I had been hurt you deeply before,

you said it was really a nightmare for you,

but you'll still cherish me as before if I willing to give you chance.

My dear friend, we get used to be so close as best friend.

Thanks for everything =)

I hope we're still best friend as before.

Thank you so much,

you guys treat me well all the ways,

but this isn't a right time,

and I am not gonna make any decision,

let times prove and arranges everything.

I get used to miss you in this way,

I don't love you,

but I like you.

Love is just like a promise,

once we say it out,

you can't take it back easily.

I hope I got the chance to tell you that I LOVE YOU someday in future.

Nobody knows who you're,

I am the only one.

I see through your heart,

stay in the back of someone else,

your memories with her haven't delete.

When we're trying to be somebody, it seems like so hard.

When we want things to be in someway, it just goes by another way round.

When I wish to be with you, you just wish to be with her.

Life, that's.

可不可以再给我们的友谊一次机会？

雨天总是让人感情丰富，

有些人说，

在雨天里想念一个人是浪漫的，

更何况这是一个下雨的夜晚，

天气好冷，好冷。

我最近过得很好，

只是有少许的懒。

我觉得自己成长了些，

或许已经不再那么的执着，

对很多事情也看开了，

看得太开或许并不好，

可是至少是较快乐的。。

朋友，不管我们没联络多久了，

朋友，不管我们是否不再一样，

朋友，不管你是否把我当朋友，

朋友，不管我们还会不会见面，

朋友，不管遇见时说了多少话，

朋友，不管我们距离多么遥远，

只想说，

我们永远都是朋友。

有些事情，

或许已无法回到过去，

已无法像以往走得那么近，

我现在只渴望，

某一天你会和我说话，

当不成往日的好姐妹，

至少我们还会是朋友。。

该做的我都做了，

只希望哪天，

可以看见你对我说话。。。

哪怕只是一句，嗨！还好吗？

尽管我知道这机会是多么渺茫，

我依然希望。。。

可不可以看在我们以往的关系，

再给我们彼此的友谊一次机会？

如果就这样结束了，

那是多么令人心痛的。。。

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我想念的人，不是想念我的人。

就算你站在我面前，我却不能告诉你，我喜欢你。

我知道你心里有另一个人，可是你就是我心里的那一个。

我想，这是最难过的。

而我，却也面对这一切。

难过中，我尝试寻找快乐。

就当作，苦里头总会有些甜吧？

我希望哪天，你心里不再有她了。。。

不管多久，我希望那一天的到来。。

然而，你永远不会晓得，

你就是我心里的那一位，

因为，

我什么都不会做。。

Say NO to spicy foodssss !

Few more days to go and my sem break for 4th sem is going to end.
I back home for less than 2 weeks , and I will be back to KL on this coming Saturday =)
I miss them so much, I guess I doing nothing at here for the whole day,
eat and sleep, and then eat and sleep again =='''
I gained weight !!!!! OMG.
Start from today,
I am gonna avoid from spicy foods,
as my friends know,
I love spicy foods so muchhhhhhh.
So, it's just like killing me =(

Poh ann is coming to find me on Thursday =)
She's just like to stay at home here,
haha ! Maybe it's quite relax to be here? LOL.

Well, I can't wait to back to KL and start my new sem.
It's just because of I am really bored with doing nothing everyday. =='''

Friends, let's make our 5th sem as fun as possible.
I guess it will be quite stress because we got 6 subjects LOL.

see you guyssss sooon !!

Finally !!

Finally! It's my holidays =)

First of all, thanks and congratez to my lovely group members,

no matter what is the output,

what I wanted to say is, WE DID A GREAT JOB =)

Everything go smoothly today,

much more better than my expectation.

Thanks so much for those who has been helping us lots in this project too.

Tomorrow will be a great day?

Alright, tomorrow my class having our very first activity - picnic,

wohooo how long I never go for picnic =X

I am so excited about it and I hope tomorrow is coming SOON !

My lovely classmates, let's enjoy !!

We must take lots of photosssssss !

The worst thing is either ...

When the one who we're missing is missing someone else otherwise..

When he/she is just infront of us, but he/she don't know that we're loving him/her...

When you're loving someone that you clearly understand he/she will never fall in love to you..

When you're missing someone, you know that you got no chance to tell him/her..

When you wanted to know how he/she feels, but you can't ask........

I smile coz of you,

but your smile is for her ........

Holidays

I was suddenly shocked and I woke up at 4a.m. just now.

I thought about my driving license ==''

OMG ! It was expired on 31 Jul 2010.

Luckily I din't drive to anywhere yesterday, hehe.

Well, I need to settle it ASAP because Gordon, YeeShin and KFC are following me back to Penang and for sure I will be their driver xD

So, later imma going to Jusco Maluri's Post Office,

I hope got OPEN, please !

My holidays started but it's NOT OFFICIALLY yet,

because we still got one project to settle and we're having our presentation TOMORROW!

Kawan-kawanku, remember to MAKE UP ! hahaha INCLUDED GUYSSSSSSSSS!

Well, I feel so helpless about this project.

I guess we're the only one who haven't done with SQL =(

And about the presentation..

How should I present ?

I really afraid to talk infront of so many peoples ==''

Some peoples used to TEASE me zzzz.

Hahahaha, siapa makan cili terasa pedas !

Today will be a good Sunday?

I hope it will be.

I am going back to my hometown coming wednesday, but I will be busy till Fri because I need to be a PART TIME DRIVER for my 3 lovely friends haha.

Let's have fun ya !

I am waiting for the picnic on Tuesday !

It should be fun =)

BBQ !!!

Yeah I love it xD

After that, all of us need to wait for 2 weeks only can get to see each other :(

I am sure that I will miss you guysss so much !

Take care ya.

See you all soon !

Enjoy your daysssssssss !

BIRDday ;p

The day to be home is approaching,

but I don't seem to be so happy.

I am clearly understand why,

but please don't ask me WHY, thankiu =)

I think there is just something I don't wish to recall back,

but I just can't go away from it,

I know I need face it one day.

I am quite bad mood NOW,

the night is so quiet today,

maybe I just can't get used to this silent night after a crazy night.

My house was so 'crowded' yesterday hehe.

We got a BIG plan for Foo's birthday.

Well, the plan is not so success,

coz he actually can see what we were doing inside the house even we off the light coz.....

we never off the TV ==''

The light from TV enbaled him to see what we were doing inside =='''

but still, there was another thing to give him suprise !

Video from us =)

Deng ! Even it was just a simple celebration and simple video,

but it's sincere from all of us,

hope you like it !

On behalf of all of us, again,

we hope you will be happy always ^^

After cut cake and eat eat eat,

around 2a.m. we went to swimming pool there and had a talk.

We talk nothing much xD

But I was really happy to had a great night + morning with you guys,

I am glad to know you guys.

Around 4a.m.,

KFC, YeeShin, Gordon and I headed to Batu Caves to drop Pang,

for sure, we yamcha at there, my first time LOL.

After that, we lepak at Pang's house for an hour,

I thought we will take curry mee as breakfast,

but coz of too tired and gastric,

we cancelled our plan.

Around 6.30a.m., we headed back to KL.

Reached home around 7a.m. and I was freaking tired.

After bath I meet my lovely Mr.Chou =)

Guess what ?! I slept till almost 1pm haha.

But I still feel so tired and sleepy.

After woke up, I on9, I eat, I bath and...

after that I slept again LOL.

I woke up at 7pm and around 8pm,

I went to dinner with my 'family' in KL at the same place again.

I tried to study for a little bit today,

and at least,

I studied SOMETHING.

I know tomorrow will be a HARD DAY for me =(

coz I need to face the notesssssssssss !

Maybe I knew that it's impossible,

but I just don't wish to face it.

Give me some times,

I will just go away.........

新生活

头发剪短了，

说很短也没有很短，

只是我习惯了那长发，

如今再也扎不起‘马尾’了。

其实我想剪好久了，

只是一只在心里挣扎。

当我看见‘理发师’一刀一刀的剪时，

我并没有想要叫他停手的冲动。

我了解，头发剪了，再也接不回了，

它离开我了，它已经不属于我了。

我能做的只是和它说声再见，

然后离开了那间店。

‘理发师’问我，要不要把头发拿回家当纪念？

我说，不必了。

头发坏了，尽管我再怎么留它也是没用的，

剪了他，就像剪了不好的过去一样，

心里很了解它已无法回来了，

然而我也不再留念它了，

因为我可以重新把它留长，

留一头健康的长发。

原来把头发剪短也需要很到的勇气。

心里难免会难受，

可是剪过后仿佛松了一口气。

我问自己，为什么不早把它给剪了？

现在的我多么轻松。

朋友们，别再对过去念念不忘了，

它已无法回来，

向前走吧！

我剪了头发，

把过去剪了，

我的新生活，

已经开始了。

Let go the past

It has been a week I never be here =X

I guess I am lazy , heee.

It's Friday, OMG !

Study break is gonna end soon.

I think I do nothing ? haha.

I still got 1 assignment and 1 project to go =(

I hope I could finish it by today but ......

I really got no idea with the assign =='''

I wanted to go home =)

For sure, I will miss KL lots during my sem break too haha.

I am quite happy recently,

with or without reason,

it's not important to know, hahaha !

Alright, everything happens with reason right ?

But just let me keep the reason,

because I also not really know why kekez ;p

I think it's time for all of us to let go the past.

Every single memory is valuable,

we all knew that,

but sometimes letting go of sad memory doesn't that bad.

Unfortunately, sad memories are hard to let go.

I guess this is the hardest thing.

We born to move forward,

looking forward and goes on with life.

Please don't look backward,

look backward will only let you standing on the spot without moving.

My beloved friends, let's move forward together and work out a better life.

We are still young, nothing that we can't get over,

it's just depends on we want to be or not.

Hard times will pass, I keep telling myself and it does really work.

The only thing that we can do is just let go of someone that he/she will never cares for us anymore.

Love or Friendship, both the same.

Move forward, there might be someone who will appreciates us as we did.

If you insist to hold it, you're just leading yourself to get heart break.

So what is the point for you to hold it?

Please don't hurt yourself when you're loving someone,

because when you're loving someone,

there might be someone who loves you much too..

I, you, we, they, he, she, it !

We all deserved a better life.

And last, GOOD LUCK to you guys !

Study break

Well, it's my study week =(
I am not going home for this study week because I am going to have STUDY GROUP with my crazy gang LOL.
Wherever we are, it should be FUN.
For sure, we will study at the same time xD
Kawan-kawanku, please huh ;p
hahahaha !

Anyway after a TIRING study group,
we decided to have steamboat as dinner for this coming Friday ^^
In our life, not just BOOKS,
we must ENJOY !
Friends, pointer doesn't a matter,
as long as we do our best and can graduate in time.
When we are working,
skills are much more important than CGPA =)
As long as we can get a Degree cert as a prove hahaha :p

The day for me to be home is approaching.
Wohooo.

I am going to meet my dearest Hui later ^^
I feel sleepy now xD
I am going to take a nap now !

Good luck to all my friends.
Study SMART ya,
not study HARD.

Congratulations to E-Shien

Last Sunday was my friend's wedding buffet,
first of all,
congratulations !
Hmmm, she is my very first friend who get married hehe.
So this was the first time I attended my friend's wedding.
We tried to made it FUN xD
I should say that, wherever we're, it will be FUN !
Well, all photos were uploaded in Facebook,
and I knew that it's too late for me to post this blog haha.
Hmm I am just so LAZY ^^

My final is approaching.
I wanted to go home but ....
I hope I can sleep for 24 hourssssssssss !
I don't know why,
I am so stress =(
Sometimes I feel like gonna give up !
I am fucking dislike some of our L******** !

Pimplesss love me much recently.
I guess my hormone is imbalance hahahaha.
Alright, just ignore me.
My mum said, maybe you're too stress , so ......
I think so =)

I am not in good mood this few days !
The feeling is damn BAD !
I got no confident at all....
As what my sis said, from the way you talk,
I knew that you lost your confident ...
Yes I am.
I don't know why,
don't ask me why..

Maybe I am just a failure all the time...

It's JULY !

OMG ! It's JULY !
How fast is it ?!
We're getting older hoho ^^
Well, I am always sweet 18th hahaha.
Anyway, another 6 months to go and...
We will be graduate soon.
I guess we are going to graduate on Dec 2012.
Hmmm.. It's real soon.
OMG ! Started to feel reluctant =(
We're gonna leave each other soon.
So, please do appreciate every single moment we spend together ♥

Tomorrow, we're going to Sg.Wang !!!
I gonna buy myself a bag !
I've been wanted to buy for so long ..
I hope I could get one tomorrow.

Alright, thanks to Foo for the choco ♥
Looks niceeeeeeeee.
Here show you how the choco look !
And...
the MODEL of the choco haha.
No doubt.
It's foo's production xD

Well, another assignment to goooooooooooo.
Wish me luck LOL.

This sun will be E-shien's wedding buffet.
All of us are so excited and looking for it !
Let's enjoy the nightttttt !

Final oh final !
I am going home end of this month =)
Before that, I need to have a war with my dearest final =(
Good luck my friends !

Exhausted

Well, it is a tiring day.
Foo, KFC and I met up at 9 in the morning.
We headed to 'bun san' mamak for our breakfast.
After that, we went home and started our assignment around 10 in the morning.
Around 1pm, we started prepare our lunch.
Haha it was quite fun.
Foo goreng telur LOL. Anyway, good job =)
Our lunch was simple but niceeeeeeee.
After that, we rest for a while coz we really got no idea =(
OMG ! It is time to continues.
Shitssss ! Seriously, I got no idea with this assignment !
We did tried our best to finish it but ..... ==
Ended up we decided to stop and they go home try to do it.
Or else.. we will finish it by tomorrow.
Around 8pm, they went home.

My mood is damn down right now !
Maybe I saw something?
I guess I am too tired and stress.
I miss home !
I wana go home !

This sem is really a busy and pack sem =(
Final is coming soon but there are still few assignments are waiting for me !
It drives me crazyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy !

I wish to go home.............
Exhausted..
God bless me please !

♥ Sex and the city ♥

I had a great day again with my seafoodssssssss ♥
Woke up early in the morning and headed to TS at 11am.
Siham & Heko were late about 1 hour =='''
We rushed to brunch cause we were starving hahaha.
SUBWAY , my very first time LOL.
It's not that bad and it considered healthy compared to MCD and KFC =)
After that, we shopped around.
4 of us bought the same head set and Estee bought a MP3.
Wooow congratez ! She wanted to own one for so long d.
Finally, she made it ^^

After that, we were thirsty and had our desserts at sweet chat.
The waiter was so rude. Ishhh.
After that, Estee and Ko went for the CPR while Peng and I went for ATM.
Well, when I was drinking water, I saw someone that looks familiar.
OMG. Is him ! Well, I pretend that I never see him, I think this is the best way.
I met him right after 1 week ! OMG !
God is playing with me?
Haha but fine, it's not a big deal.
We are just stranger =)

After that, we went for movie - Sex and the city !
Frankly, this movie is quite bored =='''
But some parts are also fun ♥

After movie, it was already 7pm.
We went to Klang for dinner.
As usual, bah kut teh ! Yum yum ^^

After that, dropped Co and Peng to their house.
Is time for us to back to KL !
Wohooo. What a tired day =(
But I did really enjoyed it !

Tomorrow going to class ==''
Assignments ! OMG.
I hope to finish it by tomorrow.
Bless me !

Gathering of Evil Spirit

Hoho ! Finally, today is our jimuisssss gathering =)
We took our lunch at Zen, Sunway Pyramid.
There were just 5 of us --> Lili, SK, Xiao, Boey and I.
I hope there is next gathering soon and it will be more and more evilsssss !
Hahaha. After that, we had girl's talkssssss for sure.

I love the foods there !
It's so nice but it's expensive too =(

We ordered lots but I just show two of it enough to avoid you from starving haha.
OMG ! I am so in love with it !!

Nice right ?!

It's so expensive.
So, just can go once a while =(
Haiz. Next time I must bring my family there LOL.
Because I no need to pay what hahaa.

After that, we shopped around but I buy nothing haha.
I need to save money, so.............
We go home around 6pm and luckily there was no traffic jam =)
After took a bath, I am waiting for Foo and KFC to fetch me for assignment.
OMG it's killing us.

The time is 1235am now and we are still in Paparich ><
Well, I guess we're going for supper before going home. xD

I am so excited because I am going to meet my lovely jimuisss tomorrow !
hohoho ^^
Sex in the city, wait for us !

Study life is so stress with those examsss and assignmentssss,
but I am enjoying it at the same time too !

After hard times, I feel happy and lucky.
I hope this feeling will goes on..

Tomorrow will be a good good day again.
Nitez world =)

♥ Welcome ♥

Let go the past, welcome the future.
Deleted bad memories,creating sweet memories.

First of all, welcome to my new blog =)

Since most of my classmates do not understand chinese,
I will TRY TO express my feeling in English from today LOL.

Times are always cruel,
it will takes something away from our life in a second,
but sometimes it is also kind,
cause we will gain something at the same time too.

I feel proud with my classmates,
whenever you guys see this,
please give yourself a big clap.
No need much, just ONE which is out from my heart ^^
We might have our own GANG in the class,
but whenever we got problem or we are planning something,
we will still work together.

Thanks for the belated birthday party,
thanks for always by my side when I am really down,
thanks for your patient,
thanks for your forgiveness,
and....
thanks for everything =)
Even I am not really in mood that day,
seriously, I feel warm,
but I didnt show it =)
Fyna, I was really suprised when I saw your that night !
Thanks ! Thanks to all of you ♥
This is the most unforgetable birthday party that I never have before.
On these days, I found how glad I am to be your friend.

'as long as u know there are stil many ppl around you that gonna stay by your side no matter what shits happen on u.'

Foo Kah Mun, even this sentences contained SHITS ,
but it awoke me.
This is the warm-est sentence that you told me among all these days.
Thankiuuu =)

Thanks to my EVIL SPIRIT family too ♥
My dearest family in KL.
No matter what happend,
I know you guys will always advise me.
Thanks =)

When I decided to let go the past,
I took a deep breath,
I told myself that it wont be back to my life again,
never and ever.

There are assignments and exams are waiting for us.
Friends, let work hard together =)

My life, I am coming !